a little while ago


A little while ago,
I thought I saw this night
Pretend. And look away.
Turning brighter,
Growing lighter,
Allowing, some warmth, as if the sun, to me.

Then she pretended to turn back.
Turning back. Again.
And all that warmth,
And all that light.
Was nothing but pain.
From a little while ago.

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